New Steps
After all that has happened, I observe everyone around me. Few things have changed, if any at all, people have changed more than anything else, and even so it is not that different.
As I step away I see that it does not cause a single ripple in other people's lives. Some still care only about their own happiness and care not about others, some act differently from what they say, some still got it all, but few are there to talk to a wandering shadow.
I now am concentrated in the college, no more needless going out, no more caring about what others are doing, no more trying to hold the group together. This is my path, and I will go alone if no one comes with me, I will study to understand every class in my college, will rest peacefully at night and eventually I will see some nice people.
The first chapter of my book is almost done. I have been learning new things. I have been playing very nice video games (Kingdom Hearts for PS2 I recommend). It is hard having no reason why to wake up the next day... but conquering simple battles in my life has been quite satisfying, like doing all the homework and understanding it.
I don't know what the future holds, I imagine I will be alone in this road for a while, but as long as there is a gentle breeze up ahead and a shadow where to avoid conflicts I will walk towards the future, a future hopefully far away from this life, where I can leave all my wounds and deceptions to be buried in the sands of time.
Next challenge up ahead... my birthday, it has disaster written all over it.
Lots of work, little time. No love, little friendship, new challenges and hope that I will level up before the next battle.