Outer-self Knowledge
I have heard many times that people should develop a greater self-knowledge. I have come to think that most people who have some self-knowledge, do lack some knowledge or interest about the lives revolving around them. Most who have no self-knowledge know nothing, or have no interest about others lives.
People tend to look deeply into their own lives, and as far as it concerns them, as long as they are happy, nothing else matters. I think this should be right, but I cannot agree with this, as some people depend on others to be happy.
I think seeking knowledge was one of my worst choices in life. I have learned many things in life, enough to learn about others just by observing. I became interested in other lives, more interested than in mine, but I wanted to incorporate those to my life, as I wished my life would become part of those other lives, and this wish would prove to be a deception as very few people have any interest in others lives.
I must admit, maybe I have less knowledge about others than I think. But at least I have the interest to know people surrounding my life.
I also admit I find interesting to see how very few people go off their wishes and ways to make others smile... and you either stand by their side, or you stand alone.
Makes my deeper soul very sad, to think this might be true, as I long to find someone who would stand by my side to fight against the problems in life.
I know that when you are happy you would not like to be near someone sad, as it would probably bring you down, but I tought that when you were sad, your friends would try to make you happy. But when no one will stand near you when you are sad, and you have to force happiness so you won't have to stand alone, that is a really depressing.
Tonight my prayers go to those who walk alone, stand alone, fight alone and die alone. I wish you all find someone pleasant that will live by you sides.
I know how hard it is to go home alone every night, fight your fights alone. No one should have to pass through this.
Get to know your friends, your interest, affection, company and/or dedication can make a live much happier.