In this life we come upon situations very hard...
some of them we are not meant to face, some are battles we should fight alone and some are the battles we fight with our friends because we can´t do it alone.
Well, whenever you can fight, things go easy, because no matter how hard the task is, or how harsh is the war, if you can rise and fight, with either your pure courage, or the strength of your friends, you can end up victorious, and it is mostly up to you. This is good, even if normally you can´t see it.
But when you can do nothing, when you feel like an ant in the hands of a cruel kid, when your most drastic actions can only bring up your own demise, that is where the real pain lies. It is the pain that only your soul can feel, it is that wich alone can destroy you body and make you insane. The better chance you have is to unload all pain from time to time, and you will find a way you would never imagine...
I discovered that no matter how much my heart is hurting, no matter how much blood my soul may have dropped, that I still can lose my mind in a full-study afternoon. It is enough to relax your mind for some hours, to make the pain stop for a bit so that your wounds may heal at last. This time may seem very little compared to the time you suffered, but it is very good to give a break to your soul and spend the energy of your mind, or you body, therefore this little time can seem like an eternal moment of peace... for some time, even if just a couple of minutes your soul was at peace, a peace you would think had been lost forever.
Give your soul a break once in a while, it deserves to rest to.