I am so tired... I want it all to end...
I've seem for maybe the 666th time that which I would love to happen to me. This situation that only happens in movies and cartoons, that does not happen in real life.
Good people do not usualy live happily, they usually suffer. Most of the nicest people I know suffer more than those who do not care.
Each time I see these situations, I feel happy, because I imagine I can have one relationship like those in the near future. But life has taken it's toll, and now I feel happy, but I feel also sad, because I feel each time farther from what I wished to have.
Maybe I should stop trying, it never works anyway, it would at least spare me some delusions.
What?!!! I don't want to quit! It is the only thing that I find worth fighting for, without that... without that...
But I am tired, this battle should not be fought alone, life should not be this way. But I guess it all balances in the end, universe must mantain equilibrium, for someone to be happy, someone has to be sad. I think I rather be sad and see that my friends are happy.
You know, I won't be able to carry this out for much longer, I need to smile, feel happy, I can't create energy from nowhere, I need a source...
If you do not cry when you want, you can never smile.
I want to cry... how can 5 bad things happen I row like this... and it has been some time since I last saw any good thing, how is this equilibrium?
As you said. Think that because bad things happen to you, they don't happen to others.
I just... I didn't ask for much... I wanted a simple life... I wanted a reason to be happy... is... is that asking too much?
Maybe it is, maybe it's not. Most probably you just have a severe case of bad luck.
I want to rest in peace... I want to... to calm my mind, give my soul peace, have a reason to smile...I am too tired for this.
We should rest. There are still fights to be fought this year. After that you can... you know...
Yeah... Selan... Let me sleep for a while next to you.