Peace and Burden
So life has given me many opportunities, from my point of view I have screwed most of them.
So many things, so many pains, so many relationships.
My burden has become more than I can carry, so I dump part of it on others. I ask myself why should others bear with me this which is my choice to carry.
I am sorry for things I bring upon those around me, I never wanted to be such a hassle specially to those whom I really like.
My life has been lately nothing more than trying to find some peace. This has turned to be an unfruitful venture, as my life brings me constant worries.
But now I scream loud and clear...
I really want to rest, lay down and find some peace. The peace I once found in friends arms, now rests in the past. So I find myself lost, not knowing where to find such place.
So many things I would like to hear, so many things I wish I never said, so many things I would have done differently, so many futures I don't want to see, and among so many things, not a single light shines in my life.
Oh friends, that time to time bring me a shed of hope, your happiness is the only true reason for me to be here. I bless you all for the time and effort spent with me, I hope I can someday return the good moments, with twice as much happiness for you.
But my soul still wanders, in the lonely dark light of the night, in search for a time and place where it can sit and rest. Go away from the demands of life, and find the peace I only thought I could have near Selina.
Tears to those who fought and fell.
Tears to all my regrets in life.
Tears to pains I have caused.
Tears to the peace I've lost.