This weekend I went to a night club.
Strangely I was smiling all the time, I just could't avoid it.
It was a nice place, some great musics, and some very very beautiful girls.
My friends there wanted to get someone to me, but that was more of a bluff, or they were just involved in other things and forgot all about it. Better that way I think.
I danced all night, flerted a little, got really exausted, which is what I wanted.
But as the night went on, and a new day came I reallized something...
I may like to go to places like that, and I may like to flert, and I would like to kiss someone there, but there is one downside...
I find a need inside me, I need someone more calm... with things in commom with me.
I know nothing about people in night clubs, but those who go, usually have an agitated life.
I now feel somewhat sad. I miss those who have things in commom with me. I miss playing video game with my friends, I miss talking to some friends about life, I miss having company to study, I miss playing RPG, I miss people coming to me at MSN to talk about wierd stuff, but I think I miss most spending time with someone caring.
A friend of mine said that the world has led us to believe that we have to work/study so we can have money to afford having free time to have fun. Even if I believe that is an overanalisis I still agree with him in some part. I feel the lack of time in other people lives.
Sometimes I wish I could live in a place where people have time to spend with other people, maybe one day, when Other Worlds(see http://www.renatomacae.blogspot.com/) is functional, maybe then I can find such place.
For now I live according to what life dictates, just hoping that one day someone will go out from their lives and make my day happier ^^.
The problem about searching for people to have in your life, at least my problem, is that I have found some really special people, some that I wish would remain with me for the rest of my life, and I believe I have all that I want near to me, but because of the lack of time, interest or just pure lack of luck, this things so close to me are so far from my reach.
I wonder if there is someone really perfect out there for me to meet, or if I already met that someone. Either way I love my friends, all of you, each for your special traits I hope you all live happily ever after ^^