~ The Adventurer Chronicle 20 ~
"...between all the rush, all those mixed feeling, his heart was starting to lose its rithim, and that sound took over all the chaos and destruction going on. Tum tum..............................tum tum...........................tum tum. Drown in fear, sweating in concern, confused with anger, it had been years since so many feelings flowing uncontrolled. His heart was starting to beat faster. Tum tum...........tum tum.......tum tum....tum tum..tum tum tum tum. As he pumped almost all his energy into the dagger he started to reavaliate the situation, he has been too much confused in the last minutes, his heart beat was almost too strong for him to think, he was losing hope, his friends were hurt, he was hurt, the enemy was too powerful. He thought that at least this way they had a chance to escape, he felt happy for having this dagger with him.
The dagger emitted a gentle glow that quickly spread across the whole room into the resto of the world. Behind the glow followed a trail of darkness reducing the brightness everywhere, it was faint but noticeable, and its presence show a very clear effect. As it passed everything slowed, a spark flying in the air started to fall very slowly, a sword swung to a halt in mid air, a whip reduced it speed to meet a stop near a spear wating patiently for its arrival. On the other side of the room Cid was midair with his lance while near him a spell colored the place while wating for time to resume so it could reach its destiny.
As Maelstron looked around he began to breath normally again as his heart began to beat normally, tum tum............................ tum tum. He was in the middle of devising a plan to get out of this mess when terror struck his soul. A beautiful figure with the very dark blue armor walked graceously towards him, wielding her axe she looked at him and grinned. Why isn't she stopped, she couldn't have ignored the power of the dagger, could she be this strong he thought. The panic was clear in his face, so she decided to talk first.
- Very nice, I never would have expected this from you humans. Such power, I feel happy, I thought this fight was going to be boring.
- How come you are moving, you should have been stopped with everthing!
- I think you underestimate my powers boy. I am a master of time and therefore I am immune to its effects! - she laughed looking to the dagger in his hands - So that is why you were able to hit me, you have a very nice artifact there with you, I guess you own you life to it, and the life of your friends.
Cold drops of sweat rolled down his face, he swallowed dry. His heart was beating faster than ever, he barely could hear the woman talking. This is insane, he thought, we whould never have come here, we can't face them like this. I wish I had time to think, was the last desperate words in his mind before she resumed her speech.
- I recognize you are very strong, but you are only human. You come here barging in like you own this place, you try to kill us, you act like you have judged us to a death sentence but you have no idea of our power or what we have done! - she said with a clearly angered tone - You endangered the lives of you friends to lead them into a battle that will do you no good, even IF you hada a chance to win it would make no difference in the world, and you still fight like we are the ones to blame for your pathetic world. You will pay for your insolence.
She waved her hand back, and a dark blue burst of light flickered around her companions as they regained movement. After a second of confusion they noticed what had happened and walked slowly to join her. At that moment Maelstron knew this could be the end, they were not winning this battle in six he would definitely lose alone against five.
As they gathered in front of him, he knew they would not be merciful, he didn't have enough power to take that battle for more five minutes, so he concentrated some of his power left and charged towards her hoping he could find a way to escape with his friends before their life reached its end. The only sound left was his heart pounding fiercely trying to isolate his thoughts from the world, as the image of his enemies drew near with each step. With..."
~ End of Part 20 ~

New Steps
After all that has happened, I observe everyone around me. Few things have changed, if any at all, people have changed more than anything else, and even so it is not that different.
As I step away I see that it does not cause a single ripple in other people's lives. Some still care only about their own happiness and care not about others, some act differently from what they say, some still got it all, but few are there to talk to a wandering shadow.
I now am concentrated in the college, no more needless going out, no more caring about what others are doing, no more trying to hold the group together. This is my path, and I will go alone if no one comes with me, I will study to understand every class in my college, will rest peacefully at night and eventually I will see some nice people.
The first chapter of my book is almost done. I have been learning new things. I have been playing very nice video games (Kingdom Hearts for PS2 I recommend). It is hard having no reason why to wake up the next day... but conquering simple battles in my life has been quite satisfying, like doing all the homework and understanding it.
I don't know what the future holds, I imagine I will be alone in this road for a while, but as long as there is a gentle breeze up ahead and a shadow where to avoid conflicts I will walk towards the future, a future hopefully far away from this life, where I can leave all my wounds and deceptions to be buried in the sands of time.
Next challenge up ahead... my birthday, it has disaster written all over it.
Lots of work, little time. No love, little friendship, new challenges and hope that I will level up before the next battle.

A slowly walk out of Paradise
So, I am back. It's been a long time(yeah 6 months seems like forever in this condition). But slowly I have burning my own wounds, since they didn't heal on their own I had to do something to stop the blood loss. The way I found to fdo this was to give up on my natural instincts and forcedly distance myself from anyone who has hurt me. So now I am dedicating myself to studies, trying to go out less with most I know. I'll try to enjoy better my free time, more sleep, playing nice games and working on personal projects. I officially give up trying to talk with people, I won't worrie anymore, if they don't want to talk with me screw them. I'll be nicer to anyone who is nice to me, I am still the usually sweet guy I always was, I just won't waste it on people who don't want.
This weekend I went to the park with a friend of mine. We went rollerblading. It was really nice feeling the wind passing by, my friend holding my hand, people respecting our unprotected bags and a perfect weather for a day at the park. After some playing around we went to lunch and to rest a little, hot day, had to drink a lot to quench my thirst. We decide to walk around the lake in the clycling lane, and eventually sat near the lake to observe the ducks and gueese and similar birds swimmin in the lake. We talked a bit there, then went back to the front side of the lake, near the water fountain, they were turned off, but at least we got a great spot near this huge beautiful tree. It was nice day, she tried to prowl into my life and with noble intentions she tried to make me feeel better. We shared secrets, we heard each other's problems we fished solutions and opinions from our lives. Such a nice friend, I hope she liked the day as much as I did.
Guess some things in life are really just not meant to be, besides my best efforts I stand watching some friendships fade. The difference is that now I give up, I won't fight and hurt myself for something or someone not worth it, and lots of things I once thought worth taught me they are not worth. Someone has shown me that there are still nice people to fight for, so I'll focus on solving my problems and if I have the time, I'll try to improve some friendships.
Some things also end up affecting you by quantity, even hearing song a thousand times some sentences ended up hitting me much stronger now. And following their wise words I will go on forward. Here are some sentences from songs that affected me a lot in the last year.

"So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time"

"Only a warrior with a clear heart
could have the honour to be kissed by the sun
Yes, I'm that warrior I followed my way
led by the force of cosmic soul I can reach the sword"

"You can't be a hero
Hiding underneath your bed
Got to live the life
You create inside your head
So I opened the window
Caught the wind one night
Now I sail with the birds in their flight
If you're tired of everything
Come hitch a ride with me
You'll cry out in joy
When you realize you're free
It's a trip like no other
For your heart and mind
Leaving all but the future for behind"

"Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. "

"So everything's not perfect
Don't matter 'cause you'll rework it
Nothing's holding you
Never stopping, never stopping, never stopping now"

"I wanna be cool, I also wanna be like him.
But that's not something,
I can do so easily,
This is not simply my way, my own style,
Gotta get a hold of my life.
...
If i just follow you,
I will never see the light,
Now's the time to find my way through this life,
Trying so hard to be strong."

"Moving over endless mountains oh so high
Walking to the light
Your heart will
See the path and you will find your way
Just wait and see"

"Holy flame burn again for eternity burn my heart to win."

"blind and dark along my way
I must go on wise and brave before a last hail"

"What the hell am I waiting here for,
expecting you to come and give away your life
Just for a moment of my time,"

"It doesn't matter now what happens,
I will never give up the fight.
Long as the voice inside drives me to run and fight,
It doesn't matter who is wrong or who is right."

"Trust your feelings, got to live and learn.
I know with some luck that I'll make it through,
Got no other options, only one thing to do!"

"Live and learn!
Hanging on the edge of tomorrow,
Live and learn!
From the works of yesterday."

"There's no time for me to mope and cry.
I've got to get started now.
Adventures are so much the meaning to life!"

I think that many things require different insights. Sometimes you have to realize that you're fighting a lost battle, so just give up, wander off a bit, discover new places, new people, new adveturs. Just stop fighting before you lose your sanity. I'm glad I was able to give up before I was too wounded to recover, I know the price was a very high one, but thanks to the king intentions of a friend I regained part of my hope. So I'll wander a little, trying to once again see the world with the eyes of a children, purify my heart and regain the lost innocence. I invite anyone interested to accompany me on this journey, I'll try to keep a log here of most interesting events, and in a near future I'll resume the adventurer chronicles, with new and exciting passages of the story yet to be written.
The winds are changing, they blow not against, nor in favor, they only refresh and inspire. The silent messages that roam through the air indicate the world is wainting to see what happens, and I know I'll be there when it does.
The sends of time are gone now, and time destroyed everything, but from the sands left behind I will rise, build a new empire, even if I have to bury all traces of the past, I hope I can salvage the best treasures of the anciente lives.
As Ixidor, The reality sculptor said: "My past holds only pain and loss. I will conquer it by creating the perfect future."
I hope you will be a part of it.
And I must thank someone, once more... thanks, you've done more than you imagine, and asked nothing in return but my smile, that is true friendship.