Why is it so hard?
Hell, it shouldn't be so hard! Why does it have to be like this...
Why do people try to destroy each moment, is it so hard to let someone enjoy it?
Why is it so necessary to criticize others? Some are trying to do something nice, is it too hard to spare a nice word?
Why is it so hard to stop complaining, why don't I just shut up?
Why is it so hard to accept simple things?
Why am I unable to make someone feel better? Does no one care for what I can give, or I became a lousy helper?
Why is it so hard to find someone that likes you? Most people I know do not seem to have a problem with that, did I miss some basic definition?
Why is it so hard to make company to someone?
Why are people so stubborn, can't they admit what others say, accept what others offer or believe what others teach them?
Why is it so hard to give up, and at the same time so hard to keep trying?
Why is it so hard to be nice to others?
Why don't you hear me, why don't you call me, why don't you keep your promisses, why don't you tell me, why don't you share your problems, why don't you spare me from your troubles, why don't you make me company, why don't you come see me, why don't you do something for me, why don't you do me a favor, why don't you give me your hand, why don't you want to see me, why don't you sleep with me, why don't you stay here? Will I ever find someone?
Why don't I shut up, why can't I sleep in peace, why do I worry everytime you are not smiling, why do I try to help you even when you don't help me, why do I have to be alone, why am I so tired, why am I so sad, why don't I cry, why do I smile, why do I feel scared, why don't I leave you alone for a while, why can't I find someone that loves me? What should I do?
As I stand confused, I feel like I know as much as a five years old, I do not need to know the answer to these questions, maybe I would like to know only one answer.
So many relationships, so many troubles with people, did I cause all this? Is it because of my choices that I am here? Do I bring suffering to others? Will I ever find peace?
As I was watching this stupid movie I read this: If there is no point in life, what the hell would be the point in death? Even if I think I know the answer, I find amusing the funny sence it makes.
I don't know what to do in my life. Should I try to engage some talk? Shoul I stay quiet and let things cool down? Should I try to meet someone new, but where? Should I sleep 24 hours straight? Should I wait for someone to come? What should I do, let time fly away?
I sometimes wish I could hear your voices here, would like you to say something. But I guess no one should say something if they don't want.
As my eyes start to close without my permition I should go to sleep, but I am afraid of the tomorrow. I hope someone can say something nice in the next days, even if a simple I like you...