Differences
I'd like to point that most people don't pay half the attention to things they should.
On the same note, about half the time someone pays attention to something they are just over thinking about some criticism about the detail.
No examples will be given as it is not the point here.

Having fun doesn't mean you are doing what you want, or prefer, right?! But even if you have fun, that only reflects part of you. Unless, of course, the part reflected is that inner self, the true self. Then there is probably little that would be better.

I'd like to say I'm an hypocrite for laughing when I'm feeling annoyed. Not that I laugh to hide my annoyance, but because there was something genuine to laugh, but my true self felt that I should be doing other things.

That is my only frustration about RPG. Not the activity, but the people involved. While I know most people in the table enjoy the game, and are there to have fun, each one has a particular reason within the RPG to it. It bothers me that maybe I'm one of the only one interested in developing the story, the character, seeing how he will live and what he will become, seeing the adventure turning into something worth of being a movie, or a book, with deep characters, and action filled story.
If you ask most people they probably will say that that is their reason to play. But actions speak louder than words, right?! While I have fun with each joke, and of course I'm part of it, I feel that the more we joke around the less into the game everyone is.
Some people are there, paying more attention to the loved one nearby, (yes I find it annoying, and you may not believe it, but it is not because I don't have my respective loved one there). While each one has no obligation to pay 100% attention to the game, when you ask for the description a second time, three times during the session, you are just no into it, and of course disrupting the flow.
Comfortable places to play may seem to me as a poison depending on the group, as 2 hours in the game, people are starting to lay down, sleep... Of course, this goes by many factors. If someone is sleeping in a stone stair, on the cold ground, then it is not a problem of attention, but a need to sleep. While much more understandable, people should not be this tired in the game, specially when they agree/suggest/prefer the time which the game is played. (Exceptions are exceptions, so a 2-hour night sleep, because of work/study/party, is an exceptions, as it should occur very rarely.
Some people play to be with people. This is technically not a problem. Well, no one plays because they want to be alone. But when you play because it is either that of being alone, meaning that you don't like to play, you do it because it is the only good alternative, then you will end up slowing the game down. Or you would be a GOD to play perfectly a game you dislike.
I even hate myself, because all hatred I surround myself in leads to a lot of unnecessary jokes during game play. While some are funny, I don't really hold back on them, and end up disrupting the game even more.

Sometimes I think I live up to friday nights, (the sacred RPG day), after all I think about the RPGs during the whole week. Of course I don't think about it all the time, but it is one of the few things I do naturally with determination. I study, develop, create. I do it during classes, when driving, when cooking, in the shower. (ok, I'm not geek enough to think about RPG during sex)
I'm filled with megalomaniac plans about RPG.
But with some many troubles, fridays are not that much fun... it is the best thing I could do, and wouldn't stop it for anything. But taking into account the stress to organize things, the get everyone ready to begin, losing hours you could play when people are still awake, and heavier than these two, that fact that you take six hours of the real world, to do nearly nothing in the game, with infinite distractions, interruptions, and the end you see everyone leaving your house, and you quietly go around the house, putting everything into other, reflecting on how much time was wasted, and how you wanted to play the part you never got to because everyone wanted to stop, you feel that bitter sad taste. I want to call it failure, frustration, anger or even deception, but it is so many things it is hard to put in words.
RPG has become like an expensive sweet candy with and awful aftertaste. It takes a lot to get, it is nice while it lasts, but in the end you suffer more.
People, even within a common ground, are so different from each other. And ironically, no one pays attention to this kind of thing, the kind that could make a significant difference.
Maybe this is all frustration because I never got to finish one of my campaigns, but I say I'd just like to meet someone that shares deeply the same interest and view about RPG. I feel so lonely at the table.

The price of peace.
- Oh wise one, are you in peace? - Inquired the girl sitting on the bench beneath the red tree.
- Peace is very personal feeling, but at this very moment I could say I am. - He answered looking past the blue tree, into the mountainous horizon.
- So, sometimes you are not at peace?
- You seem surprised. - He stopped for a moment, but she only shifted her eyes from place to place, searching for an answer to a question not made. He went on. - Peace is not something eternal, or a final state of mind. It is like every other feeling, it comes when the time is right, and it goes away without warning. Being at peace is like a country in peace, life is easier, better, people suffer less, but one day a monster, or a mad man, attacks the country, and with the war, peace goes away.
- And how do you achieve peace? - Her eyes dropped to the ground, where she swept the dirt of the ground with her shoe.
- Well, peace is something very costly. It depends on what are you willing to spend to have it. Mainly peace depends of what peace means to you. Peace may be found in the destruction of something, by enjoying a beautiful landscape or even fishing with someone dear. Primarily, you choose what you are willing to spend to achieve peace.
- But... what exactly could be spent that way?
- Well, time is the most common, since anything you do will require some sort of time. Additionally emotions are something that can usually hinder your peace, so taking care of them is something you might need to achieve peace. You may need to sacrifice some emotion, or regain another, it depends only in yourself. I've seen people sacrifice friends, lovers and even family, of course I mean they've cut relationships with those people, not killed them. But it is not unheard of people who did take a life to go for peace, be it by revenge, or be it by taking their own life.
He walked calmly up to the middle of the courtyard, he looked back to her over his shoulder.
- The quest for peace is a most complicated one. Only you can trail your path, and only you know which path leads to it. The only true advice I can give you is, while on your path, try not to mess with others', but I would still say, don't worry too much about reaching some sort of peace, you may find that after so much trouble, it only lasts for a little time. It is better to enjoy the walk towards a possible peace, then run all the way to it, and lose yourself on the way.

It is all about memories.
"On one hand, painful memories can sometimes help one grow. On the other hand, joyful memories can make one look only backward and forget about moving forward."
True.
It is nearly impossible to expect a life with no bad recollections, but I can't imagine a life void of troubles in our world.
One can isolate oneself as much one wants, but in the end there will come a time to face an unpleasant world.
This may sound sad, but its not the impression I want to give.
You see, to be happy no one needs a life without bad memories. Bad memories serve to learn lessons, to prepare. The longer you keep without experiencing anything bad the greater are the chances of something happening.
But happiness does not reside in the lack of bad memories, but in the presence of good ones. Any moment one should be able to hold on to a good memory, and draw power from your experiences to press on forward into life.
And of course bad memories are not 100% bad. Being able to recall on something bad and see a positive side, or a lesson learned, is the mark of a happy life.
Memories are a basic and necessary part of our lives. They are there to remind us of what is important, of things that are not to be done again and to keep safe the occasional inspiring words one may need on the course of a rough day. They are forgotten, sometimes remembered, sometimes so strong no force can separate it from one's soul.
But a balance must be kept at all times. Drowning in a great memory is as easy as falling into the darkness of the bad memories. One must avoid being overwhelmed by the stronger memories. If you know a formula to do this, share with me.

Dual Blooded
- So, I don't get the difference.
- You will when you grow older, you are probably also Dual Blooded.
- Then explain to me know what does that change for me.
- Well primarily you have two different blood types flowing through your body.
- Ok, go on.
- Not much I guess. I can say that you normally use your main energy, from your primary bloodline, in our case, human. But the energies are separate, so you can deplete your human reserve and retain energy, but then you risk tapping into the other's blood power.
- You make it sound like it is something bad.
- It is. At least if you don't know how to control yourself. The second blood usually has a more primitive nature, since you raise it in an unnatural environment and never gives it any attention. So tapping into it may result on some sort of frenzy.
She stared a bit whiter than before, considering whether that could turn to worse in her life. Only after some moments she thought about what that meant about her brother.
- What is our second blood? Have you been through this sort of frenzy?
- You can't have that information yet, is is not good for you.
- You can't seriously keep that a secret now.
- When you are ready I'll tell you, and you can try asking mom or dad, but they have no idea about our dual blood. - He came closer, and passing his hand in her hair, messing it up, he said - Besides, our second blood brings up a more bestial form, so to speak. You wouldn't want to undergo a temporary metamorphosis. And yes, I did, and fortunately I've learned how to tap into that power, without it taking over me. When you are older, I'll help you control it to.
- How do I know this thing won't take over me before that.
- Just stay out of trouble, and don't get too hurt, and you may live a full life, without touching your second blood.