"The Summon"
I know I have failed to attend a friend in need.
Though I never failed to come to you.
In my life I wished to be always there when you needed.
I would like you to be there for me.
Be there when I am happy, because you are a part of me.
Be there when I am sad, because I like your company.
Be there when I call, because no one else will be.
Be there now, because you should be in my destiny.
This time I only whisper,
soon I will shout your name.
If you can, come, I promise I´ll try to make you happy.
And if you make me happy again, I will sing melodies of life,
just to make you smile.
And if you sing to me, I will place my eyes on you, to admire your voice.
I miss you by my side.
Life is so dull, you were a star shinning over the dark clouds.
May you light the lives of other people, just remember me once in a while...

"Window"
'In the search for peace, you visit many places, and get to know new people...
Then you come to this quiet place, where you stand looking over the window as outside there is nothing but rain.
But then you see, over the soothing sound of the rain on the ground, you see a pure and brute soul. Like the children that plays in the rain, happy with no reason.
You wonder if what you see is real, why would it be outside in the rain, with its gentle glow, is light triumphs over the dark clouds in the sky.
It was not there a momment ago, or maybe you just didn't pay attention.
You contemplate that image, wondering if the quiet peace would be disturbed by this new force.
Aprozing the window you can see more clearly. The image triggers memories, most of them good, but these memories steal you away from the quiet peace.
As you refocus, you realize that the glow is near your window, staring right into you eyes. As you look in awe at it, you imagine if you should say something, or if it gets what is in your mind. You ask your self how does this soul survive in the world, and how long will it stay like that before it vanishes in the dark.
You want to go out and reach for it, but you know you would cause more pain in doing so, than you would bring happiness.
You draw a spiral in the window with your finger, and from outside your finger is followed by a glowing trace, over your drawing.
The glowing shape burns in your soul as you fade into the dark, to be lost in Oblivion, but know that the spiral in the window will remais there forever as the symbol of the purest soul roaming this world.
And every one that looks into the shape can feel the peace left by her heart, and wonders if it will ever be another spiral.'
~ To you if you were to have this glow, your peace cannot be replaced, and it will be missed... ~

I once swore to fight for justice, friendship and love.
I always thought that I would have the energy to keep on fighting.
Keep on fighting...
No matter what obstacle you overcome, there will always be Still More Fighting.
So renewal of energy is very important.
To lack a source of energy is hard path to follow, but not one you could choose.
So if in need of a source, and your options have ended, you can always look back.
And ask yourself why...
Why an all Nine Hells?
Why did you even start fighting?
And if you remember...
And if you look around you...
Then maybe... just maybe...
You will see, closer than you think, the reasons you once had to fight.
And if your heart was true, and remained uncorrupted.
You will raise again to fight.
So now I would like to renew my old vows.
For those who fight the same fight as me...
For those whose kindness brought happiness to many lives...
For those who suffered in silence for the sake of others...
For those whose will and determination serve as inspirations to others...
For some people to whom I own my life...
For Sakura...
For Rosette..
For Tia...
May you serve as inspiration to me, as I once again raise to fight.
I swear to keep fighting for Friendship, Justice and Love!

Lost...
What is this feeling?
My mind must not be here. I know it because I have no idea of how I feel!
This must be anger. Or deception. Mostly oblivion.
Why do I feel like this?
I am so confused...
I need to rest. I need good companie.
I wish for peace.
I just can hope that the sound of the rain outside the house, brings me a good night rest, and calms my spirit.

Déja Vu
This expression that describes something so strange and yet there is no better way to describe it.
As I came to the highest point of the cliff, I find myself with this strange sensation. Like I have been here before.
This wind that calls me. This call I hear, is also one I fear, and hope to be the last, as I´ve heard it in the past.
This is like the same wind that blew through me so many years ago. Even if the place is different, and the reazon it calls is another, the melody in the wind is the same.
The wind brings to my memory the hopes I once had, reminds me of the important things. Why I fight.....
this fragments of my memory makes me want to rise in flames and fight like my love depended on it, fight with life and death by my side.
Fragments of soul, they carry an enormous power to restore will. But as fragments they are not complete, they lack one thing. This thing that I had with me the last time... this did not come back with the wind.
This, and only this... the difference between the past and the present, is somehow the most important thing. I miss it dearly, and hope every day that I will regain this thing.
Life is fight... but every fight has to have a purpose.

~ The Adventurer Chronicle 16 ~
"...so my master started to explain about the way´s to evolve. He said that most people only evolve when needed, but they did evolve quite fast, of course on the downside they didn't always evolve enough to overcome their challenge. Some people search for challenges to overcome and become stronger little by little. There is a really good point of this way of evolving, because the challenge is only momentary, which means that when you overcome it you will be stronger and with no challenge. That is why there are many people who constantly train in this world. There is one way similar to that but with a very big downside, that is when you have a constant problem which you can't overcome, you can only survive it's tests. That way, if you survive, you get stronger each time you pass another test, and evolve actually fast, but there is one problem with that one, as because you are constantly under a challenge, most of your energy is focused into it, leaving little energy for the rest of your life. If you do not overcome sometime your challenge you are never going to be stronger, at least not relatively. So the option..."
~ End of Part 16 ~

I came to a point in my life.
Here where I stand now makes me see so many things.
I see names, I see messages, I see probabilities, but I miss seeing possibilities.
I fear for my friendships...
I am confused, I do not know what to do, who to talk, what battles to fight.
I want to tell some people that they are hurting me.
I want to ask them to be my friends and try to help me.
But the more I see the things surrounding me, the more I fear to make a move.
I just want to leave this message to say that I love my friends, and I hope not to see any of them fade away in my life with no reason...
I hope we can leave in peace.
Until Time gives me time.

It is impressive how even little things, if in great numbers, can afect you as much as the Big Bad Thing.
I came to an dead end once again. I lost all my power and can no longer take it. Being with them has become too much exausting.
So I didn´t go today to college in order to rest my soul. Even if being alone won´t help, it still beats having to see them glued to each other every second.
Please, if any Guardian is hearing me, please give me power, give me peace, at least give me something so I can have a normal life.........